No !

Last official day of summer was today . I completely blew it off and did nothing . Ah , I cannot believe this . I have done pretty much nothing this summer . I have been alone the whole summer . I am begging to thin k that i will be going back to school with no friends . Oh joy . Makes me just a whole lot more blissful . HA , right . Tomorrow's going to be horrible . It makes it even worse that i just threw my summer down the drain . Well i have nothing really to talk about today . Pretty lame day . All i can say is that tomorrow should be demolishing .

Unexpected

So i didn't get a chance to blog yesterday . Not much happened , besides my first boyfriend ( ex ) , texting me . We ended quietly & badly . We dated twice . Now he texts me off and on asking if i want to hook up . I always say maybe just because i'd feel bad if i didn't . All though we've never hooked up full on . I then told him that the reason why i didn't want to hook up was because i would just want to be with him after . He then confessed to me that he would want to be with me too . We both fell asleep . He texted to tonight and he asked me if i liked him . I responded by of course saying , " I don't know . " . I asked him if he liked me and he said that he firgured i didn't like him and that before i told him i wasn't sure , he was going to ask me out . Until he remembered how much he hates relationships . He clearly does , he refers to them as , " Relationshits " . I replied saying , " aww too bad you didn't " , He never replied . I'm now finding myself thinking about him and what if would be life if we got back together . I wonder if i would be happier then i have been when with other guys . After all when we dated i thought he was my first love . Considering he was my first kiss , first boyfriend, and first boy i ever said i love you too . Maybe i just thought so because i'd never had a boyfriend . But i can't exactly remember how i felt . I just remember feeling nervous everyday . Hmm , is that a sign ? Who knows . I guess we'll know someday . I'm probably just in over my head , althouggh i'm pretty sure i want to get back together .

                                                         CarlyHale<3

DId that really just happen ?

Well , for the past two weeks i have been talking to a boy named Aiden . He lives on an island with his mom close to me but comes to Anacortes when he's staying at his dad's on the weekends . We hadn't met until tonight. Before we had met he said he was really into me and i told him i was into him. We made an agreement that we would be considered a couple unless after we met , we didn't like each other. Well i wasn't necessarily into the boy when i said i was. But about a week later his kindness grew on me , and not to mention he is pretty cute . We finally got the time to meet tonight. Before we met he had been saying really sweet things to me. When we met up it was really awkward. I couldn't tell if it was just because we had just met or if he just wasn't into me.   Once we decided to start walking i could tell it wasn't just because we first met ... he just wasn't that into me. Before i left my house i asked him if i could bring my friend that's a boy named Sage , but Aiden said he'd like it to just be us , so i agreed. After awhile of us walking in he quickly implied that i should of brought my friend. I feel really weird now and i'm scared to see what tomorrow brings. I'm nervous to see what he says to me , or even if i hear from him at all ... i don't know why he wasn't into me though . I'm exactly the same in looks. I just don't get it... Well , lets hope tomorrow brings something good. It's 4:03 AM , i should probably sleep and stop worrying . Lets hope everything's fine ....